so one year ago today i first arrived in the shit hole that is sun valley idaho. i'd like to be able to say that a year later everything is better, but lying has never been something i'm good at. i have more "friends" now than i did then, but i was more hopeful then than my experiences here will allow me to be now. so nothing is really beter. mostly i have made shitty fake friends that don't know how to be people, just use them. my self esteem dropped to an all time low that i never even thought was possible. and sometimes i don't even think people are actually human. i used to think that people had emotions and were capable of being empathetic, but now i just don't know about a lot of them. going back home has been everything good about the past year and it's the only reason i know i can't and won't let this place get to me...again. right now i am just really tired of fake people who act like they are your friend but proceed to treat you like something less than human and continuously talk shit about you behind your back. the same people who think that just because they have an eating disorder and are skinny to the point that it's disgusting, that means everyone else wants that too. basically what i'm trying to say is that kyleigh mccann is the worst thing that could ever happen to anyone, and most of this town is only just slightly better.